Breaking Point

What is yours? What does it take you to get to the point where you throw your hands up in the air and say, "I've had enough! I don't want to do this "mom" stuff anymore. I am going to go shut myself in the bathroom, soak in a HOT tub and forget I even have children!". Sad to say I get there often. I guess that is what happens when you have 3 children under the age of 4 huh?

I got to that point last night about 10:30.

Earlier in the evening I was happy. It was my dinner group. Mom's night out! A night to go hang out with my friends, eat some good grub and have adult conversation! It was a blast. I was gone 2 1/2 hours. I got home at 9:30 to find my son Jack in bed (good job dad!!) Brooke was at her door smiling one of her delicous smiles at me (she had been put to bed but had gotten up) and Stuart was in Chloe's room reading her a story. Things were looking GREAT! I went in and gave Brooke a big hug and put her back to bed. All was great.

I got in my fat pants and sat down to watch my shows I had recorded, put the laptop in my lap and was just going to relax for a while. All 3 of my kids were in bed for the night. WOOHOO!

10 minutes later Chloe came out asking for a drink. *sigh* Let the fun begin! I went and put her back in bed and told her she couldn't have another drink (I knew she had one the whole time daddy was doing the bed time routine). Well, she lost it. Completely lost it. She screamed - she cried - she woke up my other 2 kids. Mom is NOT happy.

So, mommy goes to work getting all 3 kids back to sleep. Brooke kept coming out a zillion times. After threatening her twice about taking away her binki, I did. She was not happy. She completely lost it. Jack is in his room crying too because he doesn't know how to put himself back to sleep and he was SO tired. So, i've got 3 kids screaming/crying/and just not happy. It was so rediculously funny (even though I was mad), that I even put it on video for further referense.

There goes mommies happy/relaxing night.

Here it is 10:30 and all my kids are up crying. I'm beaten. I just want to crawl in bed and put the pillow over my head and ignore the fact that they are all crying. They'll fall asleep eventually right?

Conclusion: I get Chloe settled while Stuart is working on Brooke. Then I work on Jack. I finally gave up and nursed him back to sleep even though he didn't need to bed fed. So, dear daughter and dear son are finally sleeping, but Brooke isn't. She is wide awake even after we get in bed. I finally gave up and went and layed with her to get her back to sleep. I finally crawl in bed at midnight.

Mommies work is never done. Just when you think you can relax, crap hits the fan, goes everywhere and you spend the next hour cleaning it up. It's a good thing we all have happier times that out weigh these horrid ones huh?